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> beckY.. my becKy
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> Let's danCe
Author: aLmich
And I still do even alone, so long as it’s an elevator without a camera. I especially like to dance up until the very last second just before the doors open. It’s the thrill of almost getting caught dancing inside an elevator, alone.
Why do I dance solo? Maybe because I just want it *hehehe. As a kid of around 5, I was not confident with my body. Dancing in the dark was where I first started, behind the door leaf. During parties in Grades 1 to 3, I envied my other classmates who knew how to dance the swing; if you knew how to dance with a partner, you were an instant hit at the party. I never had the courage to learn how to be a dancing queen. By Grade 4, folk dances for school programs gave way to new wave; there was no need to lead a partner anymore. It was more about getting the steps and the movement right. I started dancing with myself when I got the time. I’d lock the door and dance to my heart’s content; I’d pretend I was performing solo on stage in front of an adoring audience.
During my earlier Malate days [back when it was smaller and more packed] I always wanted to dance on the ledge—I used to have the body to dance with my shirt off. So I contented myself with dancing the whole night away; it even became a matter of pride for me that I could dance non-stop for almost an hour, even more. Dancing became a way of expressing myself to a general audience. Even when someone would dance with me, it is often more about just matching his movements, not really a genuine give-and-take communication. I’d like to think that there are people like me; they dance alone. Still, I wanna dance with somebody. But I have yet to meet that someone who, if it were just the two of us in an elevator, would turn to me and say, “Let’s dance." Party hard people!
> i haD foursoMe!
Author: aLmich
I’m compelled—not pressured, don’t worry—to go on all fours for him. Oooh!
> TiT for taT
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It saddens me when some people—gay and straight—believe that once a straight man has had sex with another man, then he cannot be considered straight anymore, that he has “turned gay” already. I’ve heard and read people express this idea, that once you “taste” your own gender you will become gay and the change is irreversible. Like getting bitten by a vampire. Worse, they say it with such a dismissive, negative tone.
Sigh.
Either they’re narrow-minded or they lack exposure to the diversity of reasons why people do what they do. Is it so inconceivable that a straight man will have sex with another man for reasons other than sexual attraction? Like perhaps financial desperation—in Filipino, “kapit sa patalim”? Or perhaps they do it with their gay manager as part of an “under-the-table” [or more like “under-the-sheets”] deal to get ahead in their career?
The human heart is capable of so many secrets, even to itself.If ever someone—like Robert Redford’s character in 1993’s Indecent Proposal—will offer me a million US dollars [!] to have sex with his wife, I will. Believe me. [Although why they’d offer me of all people, I have no idea, *hahaha] But here’s the thing: even if I have sex with a girl, that won’t make me straight believe me I've tried it.
How many gay men have married and had sex with women and conceived children, all for the sake of keeping up appearances?
So whenever straight male friends of mine kid me and tell me, “Ei, why don’t you try and have sex naman with a girl, just so you know what you’re missing? Malay mo, you might like it!” I always respond with, “Eto na lang________, why don’t you try and have sex with me naman [mas lalo na kung type ko yung guy, di ba?], just so you know what you’re missing? Malay mo, you might like it!”
Tit for tat. That always shuts them up.
> earPhone pLease
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> cHeap hurTs
Author: aLmich
I know something's wrong with me but I realized it’s just their banter that I enjoy; the rest I can skip. So I switched stations whenever the two fell silent, and that’s when I discovered Mo Twister’s show at 89.9WTM. There they were more talkative. But I noticed I could tolerate Mo’s schtik for only so long; after a while his put-on bravado was off-putting and grating to the ears [especially when he performs a tirade]. So again I looked for alternatives, and lo and behold, I discovered this classical music station. When Chico and Delamar weren’t talking and when Mo and Mojo weren’t funny, I’d listen to strings and wind instruments.
But then one morning I stumbled upon this particular radio duo: Chris Tsuper and Nicole Hiyala on 90.7 Love Radio. They are the morning “Tambalang Balasubas at Balahura.” They are hilarious. Nicole plays the baklang babae who says things like “Ka-lurkey!” and laughs at all her punchlines; Chris plays the straight man [literally too] in this comedy duo. He laughs along with Nicole at all her jokes. Sometimes they laugh at their own laughter. They have a particular schtik: they say things in unison, like one would say, “Based on…” and both of them will chime in, “…experience!” [that’s one of their favorite phrases].
After listening for three mornings I discovered that they aren’t on the whole morning; in fact, I think their tandem comes out in portions during the morning timeslot. Which is just as well, I guess; pakinggan mo sila ng tatlong oras, sasakit ang inyong tenga sa ingay at panga sa katatawa. I know this won't last long and I'll go back to my true love : RX93.1 but I just wanna enjoy the moment. Try it, then tell me why I said all these. Cheap hurts, at least the pain is on my panga, tiyan and puso lamang.
> yeLLow caB treaT
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> toma-Han
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> UP isaw
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> hypoThesis
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My hypothesis for today is that a person’s need for social interaction is inversely related to the quality of his or her imagination. In other words, if you have an excellent imagination, you might enjoy people, but you’re equally happy to be alone with your thoughts for large stretches. To put it bluntly, you fascinate yourself.
A key part of my hypothesis is the assumption that people have widely different powers of imagination. This seems likely. People are all over the map for every other mental ability. Whatever is happening inside the mind of the person with the worst imagination on earth is clearly very different from what’s happening in the mind of the most creative.
Presumably, if you have no imagination whatsoever, you need to get all of your stimulation from the environment, mostly from other people, or at least TV shows about other people. You wouldn’t want to be alone with your thoughts for more than two minutes because your thoughts would bore the living piss out of you.
On the other end of the spectrum, if your imagination is extraordinary, interaction with other people will just get in the way of the incredible experiences you could otherwise be having entirely in your head.
Your question of the day: Do you have an unusually good imagination? If so, do you enjoy being alone more than most people?
> deniM
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> sTupid hearT
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I recently started dating someone. He is handsome and funny and smart and successful and sweet and considerate and quirky and incredibly, incredibly [did I say, incredibly?] sexy. Just the thought of him right now sends a tingling sensation up my spine (yes, he is that good). All of that should be a good thing but quite frankly it scares the Hell out of me.
“‘Tis sweet to know there is an eye will mark our coming, and look brighter when we come.” ~Lord Byron
A little about me... so that this all makes sense: By nature, I follow my gut reactions. I dive right in. I wear my heart on my sleeve. And because of that, my heart has been broken several times because I don’t take things slow. I trust that when someone says they love me that they mean that the same way I do. I think what is said is what is felt and what is felt, if it be honestly felt, will be felt forever.
“Before I met my husband, I’d never fallen in love. I’d stepped in it a few times.” ~Rita Rudner
So along comes this guy who I had known just few weeks? [I was somehow attached back then, so we were just friends]. We met at a party/night out and he called me the next day to see if we could get together again. He's way too far from being serious [I think] nevertheless, I gave in. We went out few days later on a date that I wasn’t even sure was a date at first.
Until, that is, we kissed.
“Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place.” ~Zora Neale Hurston
And that is when I got scared. Not that I haven’t kissed anyone after C. Just that I have not felt that way about a kiss from anyone again [actually, even before that but that is a whole ‘nother story].
“Love is the poetry of the senses.” ~Honoré de Balzac
To say it took my breath away would be an understatement. My immediate reaction was: wait. This is not in my plan. This will be complicated. I could get my heart broken.
My next reaction was: don’t stop.
My relationships before this one have had one single thing in common: me loving men incapable of loving anyone but themselves. I fall for that guy in the middle of the circle of people at a party meant to jest a goody-goody party. The guy who laughs easily and knows exactly what to say and when to say it. I am attracted to charm. Unfortunately, the men I have found thus far have been all charm, and very little substance [bitter].
So - with my mended heart still planted right there on my sleeve - I dived in once again.
Hoping this time I fall softly, and stick the landing.
> hit That threaDmiLL
Author: aLmich
Binge-ing has long been my problem. And what to be expected of course is that disgusting feeling every time you hit the weighing scale. When my Ate was still pregnant, we laughed at the thought that we're gaining weight because we can afford to. Few months passed and she had already given birth. And now she's starting to lose those calories, what's left is ME struggling to be the same. I feel so conscious everytime I can't wear my clothes anymore. I need to lose weight now! I have to!
Big news -- obesity is the health crisis du jour, as evidenced by the recent flurry of headlines. What's the latest advice for those combatants in the battle of the bulge? Instead of counting carbs and calories, try nibbling flaky croissants and foie gras. Yes, according to lore and a new bestseller, if you really want to kiss your flab goodbye, take a lesson from the French. They don't diet, and they don't spend hours at the gym. So what's their secret? They eat for pleasure, savoring every bite. Now, that's some news we can really sink our teeth into!
> oh pLease don'T stoP it, oh pLease don't, oh pLease, Oh...
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> for my new sTation
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> eLevator sCene
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> anoTher biTch encounTer
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So, you know how Oprah did a segment on The Secret?
Okay, maybe you didn't know that. Maybe you don't watch Oprah. I mean, I don't even watch Oprah all that often. I'm just getting off at work when it comes on and religiously programming it just seems kind of...well, lame.
The thing is, this whole business about positive thinking...well, when you have a negative thought creep in [i.e. this morning when you're still groggy with sleep and it's another Monday morning and all you can think is, "Is this my life?"] it's easy to see how that snowballs.
The woman who sits next to me inside the FX is extremely negative. I don't wish to listen but she talked too loud for everyone to cover their ears.
It's kind of annoying.
I hate it when someone's such a Debbie Downer.
Why can't people just suck it up, you know? Just get on with your life, instead of whining ad nauseum about it all the time. I mean, you're just asking to be punched in the face at that point.
I also find it annoying when people refuse to try things, but feel like it's perfectly okay to bitch and moan about it. Like, how do you know something sucks until you've at least tried it out first, you know?
God.
People are so fucking stupid sometimes.
Like this one person whose name popped out again, who for some unexplainable reasons enjoys bitching and shitting around.
Hello! It's common courtesy to at least realize how your friends been good to you, and that they have your secrets so give them a head's up at the very least. Like, what the hell? Were you raised by a pack of animals in the wild or something?
I hate Rien Adducul, I'm supposed to just forget about her and forgive her but her shittiness still roams like venom, ready to wear out anyone.
And well, there I got again with the bitching and moaning.
I swear to God I'm not this tedious in real life.
> happy burp-day candY!
Author: aLmich
> rO and rain's birThday
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> miSsing minDorO
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> Burp-day
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> mOod shifTs
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Life these times as they say is worth all the trouble. Even if there is a greater world that awaits us beyond this polluted planet, still living on Earth is a blast. I don't mean to be a wordly creature [don't get me wrong Lord God], I just want to be thankful.
Gosh... my mood swings are terribly swinging... *heheheh. Out of sorts. Last week, it was off. But now, I sort of like my life again. That's how life goes! And that's me maybe.
I'm just thankful that once in awhile, when the drama queen inside me would vent and cry out loud, there are friends who would keep me sane and struggle with me.
Despite my paranoia and my obsessive-compulsive behavior, I still feel loved. I am thankful to God for giving me people who can put up with my tantrums, who can live up with my nagging... etcetera, etcetera.
Once in a while we feel down and depressed. I for once thought I have manic depression. Somehow, I thought it's just our angels knocking our hearts to see that we have someone to run to. It can be directly God, but sometimes he'd send someone to make our frustrations bearable. Someone who would make us feel safe, someone who would make us feel beautiful, someone who would make us feel worth all the trouble.
And that is why LIFE is worth all the trouble. Because there's God. Because he sends angels that would carry us when we're about to fall the shit hole of life.
> surVey
Author: aLmich
1. WHAT CURSE WORD D0 Y0U USE?
~ PI, PI! paksyet!
2. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO NOW?
~ Umbrella : KC concepcion version
3. WHO IS THE PERSON YOU TALK TO THE MOST?
~ Ate Erlynn
4. WHAT TIME IS Y0UR ALARM CL0CK SET?
~ 1:30am
5. DO YOU WEAR FLIP FLOPS WHEN IT'S COLD?
~ yeah and dopie too
6. W0ULD Y0U RATHER TAKE THE PICTURE 0R BE IN THE
PICTURE?
~ be in the picture but since I take good picture ako palagi taga-kuha
7.WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE Y0U WATCHED?
~ Rush Hour 3
8. D0 ANY OF Y0UR FRIENDS HAVE CHILDREN?
~ A lot of them
9. HAS ANY0NE EVER CALLED Y0U LAZY?
~ Naman!
10. D0 YOU EVER TAKE MEDICATI0N T0 HELP Y0U FALL
ASLEEP?
~ Litec - courtesy of Mikee
11. WHAT CD IS CURRENTLY IN Y0UR CD PLAYER?
~ I just hame mp3s on my phone
12. D0 Y0U PREFER REGULAR 0R CHOCOLATE MILK?
~ Regular milk
13. HAS ANY0NE T0LD Y0U A SECRET THIS WEEK?
~ Gretch... juicy ones!
14. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU HAD STARBUCKS?
~ Yesterday, 1 from Gateway Mall and another sa Adriatico
15. CAN Y0U WHISTLE?
~ Yup,singaw nga lang
16.D0 YOU THINK PE0PLE TALK AB0UT Y0U BEHIND YOUR
BACK?
~ I think think this is everyone's favorite hobby
17. DID Y0U WATCH CARTO0NS AS A CHILD?
~ Sobra!
18. WHAT M0VIE D0 YOU KNOW EVERY LINE TO?
~ I want you to paint me like... - Titanic
19. D0 YOU 0WN ANY BAND T-SHIRTS?
~ No
20. IS ANY0NE IN LOVE WITH Y0U?
~ Sabi niya
21. DO YOU DO YOUR OWN DISHES?
~ Most of the time
22. EVER CRIED IN PUBLIC?
~ Yeah, this girl even offered me peanuts so I'll stop crying... as if I'm a kid that can be bribed with candy.
23. ARE Y0U 0N A DESKT0P COMPUTER 0R A LAPTOP?
~ desktop sa office laptop sa house
24. ARE Y0U CURRENTLY WANTING ANY PIERCINGS 0R
TATTO0S?
~ Yup! 1 more on my right ear and tattoo on my left arm
31. WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?
~ Humid
32. W0ULD Y0U EVER DATE S0ME0NE C0VERED IN TATTO0S?
~ Maybe
33. WHAT DID YOU DO BEFORE THIS?
~ Update www.babyearwood.blogspot.com
34. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU SLEPT ON THE COUCH?
~ Last thursday
35. H0W MANY H0URS OF SLEEP D0 YOU NEED TO FUNCTION?
~ 5 hours
36. D0 Y0U EAT BREAKFAST DAILY?
~ Yeah!, my shift starts at 3am so breakfast is at 5am
37. ARE Y0UR DAYS FULL AND FAST PACED?
~ Full and fast paced
38. D0 YOU PAY ATTENTION TO THE CAL0RIES IN THE
FOOD YOU EAT?
~ I'd like to
39. D0 Y0U USE SARCASM?
~ A lot
40. H0W 0LD WILL Y0U BE TURNING ON Y0UR NEXT BIRTHDAY?
~ I stopped counting at 20
41. ARE Y0U PICKY AB0UT SPELLING AND
GRAMMAR?
~ Uhum, but I commit the same
42. HAVE Y0U EVER BEEN TO SIX FLAGS?
~ I'll be
43.D0 YOU GET AL0NG BETTER WITH THE
SAME SEX 0R THE OPPOSITE SEX?
~ Both
44.BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?
~ Boyfriend
45.D0 Y0U SLEEP 0N Y0UR SIDE OR BACK?
~ Either
46. D0 Y0U WATCH THE NEWS?
~ Everyday
47. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET
IT?
~ Right knee [bakokang sa province]
48. WH0 WAS THE LAST PERS0N T0 MAKE Y0U CRY?
~ Rien Adducul
49. D0 YOU LIKE ANYB0DY?
~ Friend-like [Jc], Love-like [Chris]
50. HOW'S THE SURVEY?
~ Tedious
MORE...
1.first 2 words/letters that pops in ur mind now?
~ none
2. name 3 of your crazy friends
~ Rain, Gretch and Cez
3. what's your favorite number/s?
~ 7
4. what was the first thing you did after waking up?
~ Checked my phone
5. last number of your cell number?
~ 2 and 5 [i have two]
6. who was the first person that came to your mind
as you woke up this morning?
~ **
7. who was the last person to make you feel kilig?
~ **
8.what song is on your mind right now?
~ Wonderful
9. who do you want to call on your cellphone?
~ None
10. Are you in love?
~ I think
11. what color/s do you like?
~ I just love colors so lahat
12. last song that you sang:
~ Catch me I'm falling.. - to tease Gretch
13. do you like to sing?
~ Yeah
14. have you ever been to Baguio, Phils?
~ A lot
15. what was the last song that you danced to?
~ Can't remember
16. favorite songs:
~ Now? Christmas songs
17. bakit mo sinagutan ang survey na ito?
~ Trip
18. asan ka ngayon?
~ Home
19. last person you e-mailed.
~ Myself
20. have you been to disneyLand?
~ Yes, HK Disbeyland
21.how often do you buy load?
~ 7[p300] per month
22.who's the last person in your phonebook?
~ 2putok
23. if you were given a chance to visit another country?
~ I will shop to death
24. name the person that you want to fall for you
at this moment?
~ **
> in BED with JC
Author: aLmich
I thought I'd be having a boring Saturday night. After the gimik with my new friends [myah, gretch, ryan, sir knowel and the newest - Jc], I woke up with a serious hang-over and a series of shaking and perspiring moment. The night's ka-booze plus the fact that I haven't slept for almost 2 days drops my knees. I opened my eyes and saw that I was inside my room and my head cracking and pounding like crazy. Suddenly, the party we had came flashing back. Actually, I was having second thoughts of going to Jarvis' birthday party, number one because my work ends around 12 and that the party starts at 4. Second, I have nothing to wear and third, I'm so tired to party and I would just like to doze and slumber on my bed the whole day. But I have to go because that's Diana, one of our ka-buenas.
And so I found myself, giggling and enjoying the night after the birthday party. I have not been going out for quite sometime. I suddenly bacame a stranger there. Malate crowd didn't change that much but I felt I really missed it. After Giligan's drinking session, the BED party was a blast. I somehow felt strange and alone but Jc made sure we'll enjoy the night. And for that, salamat! *hehehe I know the post' title will be gathering some raised brows but I don't care, try to get a life!
> breaKinG monoTony
Author: aLmich
Sometimes my worrying worries me... see?! Like when I ride the bus, whenever someone hides his hands in his jacket, it gives me the feeling that he has a gun or a knife. I even thought I saw someone pick-pocketing someone. Either that or I'm delusional!
There are more to that story, which at some point is an advantage because I'm vigilant and alert. But it causes me a great deal of trouble. I worry riding buses along EDSA, I don't ride "bulok", "mahinang ilaw" taxi cab, I don't ride tinted FX, I don't ride jeepneys which have small windows and goon-looking men... and the list goes on and on.
This "worrying thing" or it may come close to paranoia- is also affecting my personal relationship with other people and with myself. I worry about my future, I worry about my family if their safe, I worry if my friends are safe and if they are really "true" friends, I worry if my boyfriend is loyal to me or not... I worry about anything under the sun.
Right now, I'm worrying because I'm happily inlove. It has never been like this before, trust me! Life hasn't been to good to me in this aspect of life. But now that it seems like I have found the right one, I am worrying again... worrying that tomorrow it's a different story. Though
I trust the guy [as in I really do] this monster lurking inside my brain is slowly killing me.
I don't want to be afraid of riding the bus, jeep, or taxi. I don't want to live afraid that my loved ones are not safe. I don't want to constantly think if I turned off the gas or if I pulled the plug of the tv. I dont want to be afraid of loving too much, I don't want to worry about losing him.
I just want to live in peace.
Whew! Fidgety
ME.Good thing of course that we still have things in life that could somehow break this monotonous way of living. Yesterday, I went out to attend Diana's Jarvis' birthday. It was so cool and I really enjoyed it. Gretch, Myah, Ryan and Jc kept me company. The good day didn't just end there. Soon we headed to Giligans Makati with Sir Knowel joining us. After couple of drinks, Ryan left for he has previous commitment to attend to, Jc followed through. The remaining group then continued the night over a cup of coffee at Starbucks Adriatico. After a while, Jc rejoined us to a bar - BED. Imagine what perspired? that I'll leave to your imaginations *hehehe.
And ooppsss.. Here's some.
> dwaYne's tarP
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> myaH
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> jarVis' invitatioN
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> neW-fouNd frienDshiP
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For quite sometime I have been writing incessantly about pain and my anguished heart. Probably because it's easier to write when your lonesome. Words would just float in your head. But when your happy, there are no words to describe it.
But what I am really trying to get at is... I'm surviving.
I clearly remember these lines - People's choices are pretty much affected by what media has to say. Our minds have been corrupted by the standards of media. It has also affected the way we choose our partner in life. We look for someone who has "long, black and silky hair", healthy and buff, someone who's rich, has a good career, and has a big name in society... all these and other superficial things that will eventually fade in time.
Because of these "substandard standards", we have witnessed weak marriages, easily destroyed by problems and temptations. The most important thing in choosing a partner in life is to find someone that you can talk to, someone that you can communicate with.
I can think I can also say I'm quite blessed and should not complain so much. I'm enjoying my new found friends. I have Gretch, Myah, Nikki, Mikee and Ms. Kate from Academix. The past, present and future involving Ryan *tsalap tsalap. I'm totally over Rien's kasamaan dahil na-evic na siya sa bahay ni Kuya *hehehe.
This moved me... bigtime...
> for posting
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> spicY
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Here's my resolution, sour and spicy group over food binge-ing.
> try this
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> a differenT pRoM
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> staLLed careeR? invesT on buenaS...
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I keep mouthing the same complains and whining over and over again. Trouble is, that can have a toxic effect and infect the organisation, or at least those who are working around you. People who feel their career has stalled can turn really negative. They pour cold water over everything, and they can end up bad mouthing everything and everyone. That makes it a big challenge not only for the employer but for the person feeling that the thrill has gone.
So what are the tell-tale signs?
Red flags include you doing the same thing you were doing three years ago, not investing anything in developing your skills over the last 12 months, not adding anything to your pocket for the last 18 months, dreading coming into work every Monday morning, and watching the best assignments getting farmed out to other people. Add to that a blog entry I did earlier this year on warning signs telling you when it's time to chuck in your job.
Are there any other signs? Do you feel your career has stalled? What's gone wrong? Besides quitting, is there any other way of fixing it and getting back on track?
One of the best advise I could probably give is developing good frienship on your workplace. Lucky me, I was given the chance to meet some whom you can really consider as "barkada" or should I say - my ka-buenas?
> Let's do the baiLeys!!
Author: aLmich
Kung hindi pa, meron akong irererekomenda sa yo. Ito ang tinatawag na GATAKA, o GAtas, TAnduay, at KApe.
Ang kakailanganin mo lamang ay ang mga ito:
- 1 condensed milk
Ihalo sa malaking pitsel.
Serve chilled and with cherry para mas sosi ang dating.
> undeR the brighT moonLight
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> earWood famiLy
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> i reaLized...
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I was going to complain about doctors and nurses wearing their scrubs out in public, but I realized I'd complained about that before. I wonder if I maybe
complaining too much. It's such a way of life with me now. And that's not good, right? I mean, those are just steps away from becoming an ornery, crochety old woman that kids run away from.I don't know.
The last couple of days haven't been good ones. You just wake up and it's like you're moving around in a fog, you know? It's not so much that you're having a bad day...just a day that seems pointless.
When C called yesterday, I didn't even bother answering. I didn't care who it was on the other end. I just pretended I didn't hear the phone ringing because I just didn't feel like talking to anybody --- especially when people always seem to think something's wrong just because you don't feel like talking to anybody or doing anything or seeing anyone.
Some days, you just want to be left alone, you know?
Maybe it's the depression kicking in again.
I even resorted to just taking pictures with my friends.
I think I need to go on vacation.
> for ouR desKtop
Author: aLmich
I've been transferred to another program at last! [*whew! what a relief..]I've long been requesting for that. And now I'll be calling Academix Direct. A lead generation type wherein we call people who have plans of pursing college. We then provide 3 universities that have matched their criteria.
I just love the fact that I'm into something new. I wont be selling internet advertising, telephone subscription nor pushing for natural gas anymore. We'll just be verifying informations and then refer them to US universities and Colleges. A li'l bit of this, that and a lot of chit chat!
And more thing, I have Gretch , Myah, Ms. Diana too!
What more can I ask for?
> preTend thaT he's gonE
Author: aLmich
Dreamt about [let's call him] C last night --- which bothers me because I hadn't thought about him in a really long time.
You know when you start feeling like you're in a good place and that you've actually started to move on, but then you find yourself thinking about someone you just wish you could erase from your memory... sort of like what Jim Carrey tried to do in "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind".
Sometimes, I think that if I could completely erase C from my mind, I would. But that was before --- before, when I used to wish he'd get an STD or that his career would fall apart or that he'd just do me a favour and fucking leave Manila, you know?
It's weird how bitterness can just turn you into this horrible kind of person, you know? You get so stuck in feeling bad.
I once read, "Resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die."
No shit.
That's exactly how I was living.
But now? Yeah, the dream kind of shook me up, but I can see now that maybe I should be glad that things turned out the way that they did. Who'd want to be with a horrible person who didn't recognize your worth, anyway? If you were still with that person, you'd never be open and available to meet the person you're supposed to be with.
That sort of thing.
If I had to see him now, I don't think I'd even have the energy to say anything to him. I'd rather we just both pretended the other didn't exist anymore.
Sometimes, pretending just makes it easier.
> Let's be niCe todaY
Author: aLmich
On my way home today, traffic was bumper to bumper, the traffic lights seem to be sira na naman and coffee had dripped from the cheap paper cup onto my clean white shirt yet I tried to smile and control the PI word come out of my mouth. I was getting into the swing of things for "Random Acts of Kindness Week".
Yes, it's more than a slogan on a bumper sticker. It doesn't really matter what you do; kindness comes in all shapes and sizes. Maybe you can help an old lady cross the street, bring in your neighbor's trash cans, or help a stranger change a tire. Hahaha am I nuts? I'm not, mabait lang talaga ako today. If you have trouble thinking of something, approach me [*hehehe].
It would be best to just let it be a mystery.
However you spread kindness this week, have fun and smile.
> celebrate singLehood
Author: aLmich
"Although I'm rarely accused of "having good timing" [or tact, for that matter], it seems that my luck has finally turned: Today I've parted ways with the jerk, er, guy I was seeing, just in time for the nonstop thrill ride that is National Singles Week. Er, excuse me -- National Unmarried and Singles Americans Week. Because I am nothing if not a serious investigative journalist, I did a hard-hitting piece on the phenomenon that's sweeping our nation: Celebrating being single during an assigned week! Most reporters would shy away from such a controversial subject. Not me. It's all about the story, people. With that, today's column, Party of One. Cue "All By Myself."
Party of one
If you're one of the 95 million Americans who stubbornly refuse to join in wedded bliss, the commemorative holiday you've been feverishly anticipating is finally here. That's right, spouse-less slackers, it's National Unmarried And Single Americans Week! Possessors of a marriage license, get thee to the sleepy bedroom 'burbs. This week is NOT for you!
As for the rest -- I know it's difficult to contain your exuberance.
You've no doubt already planned several rollicking events, probably involving whipped cream and speed dating.
You've no doubt already planned several rollicking events, probably involving whipped cream and speed dating. After all, times when you can officially celebrate not having a ball & chain come but once a year. [Excluding bachelor parties. Obviously.]
The esteemed holiday was founded in 1984 by a courageous group of Ohioans called the Buckeye Singles Council, who clearly had too much free time on their [ring-less] hands. Disgruntled with the smug marrieds in their state, they decided that they just wouldn't stand for it anymore.No longer....
No longer would they ignore the blatant favoritism accorded to those with marriage certificates!
No longer would they put up with the inferior status of those without contractual agreements sealed with large, expensive parties involving multi-tiered cakes!
No longer would they answer their mother's insistent phone calls about "that nice Jewish orthodontist"!
They retaliated by proclaiming that forthwith, the third week in September would be reserved solely for honoring unmarried people throughout the nation as well as creating awareness of the rampant discrimination against their kind.
Oh, you think the unattached don't really suffer discrimination? I bet you're married, you single-hater!Stigma and embarrassment.
According to one dating expert I spoke with, "There is still a stigma and embarrassment about being alone."
Yeah! Here's to all the stigmatized, embarrassed singles out there. Grab your cats and a bottle of warm white wine and raise a toast to life without joint tax returns, "checking in," and mandatory visits with ugly in-laws.
"This week single people are finally given permission to actually get out and enjoy themselves," the expert explained.
Permission?
Singles are the only people who DON'T need permission to go enjoy themselves!
Singles are the only people who DON'T need permission to go enjoy themselves!
Beyond that, how should we losers without wedding bands celebrate this momentous occasion? Alcohol, nudity, repeated trips to Scores?
According to the expert, we can "get a good night's sleep, hang out with friends, or go for a great haircut."
Personally, I was leaning towards the alcohol and nudity, but okay. I guess a haircut sounds nice too.
And of course, nothing says "I'm going all out to properly commemorate National Unmarried and Single Americans Week" like getting a good night's sleep.
I knew this was going to be the Best Week Ever."
--Julia Allison [http://dating.personals.yahoo.com/singles/datingtips/39619/party-of-one]
*kulit no?
> kasaBay ng e-heaDs ang barkaDa
Author: aLmich
In my search, I came across the songs of Eraserheads and Rivermaya. I decided to download most of the songs I knew and listened. I didn’t realize how this could just bring back so many good memories from the not so distant past.
First I was listening to The Eraserheads’ tracks from its Ultra Electro Magnetic Pop Album [their very first]. I got this album when I was still in hayskul. My classmates, who was still trying to find their music identity at that time, also wanted this album and so we shared same moments of senti and kanta along our ways home. The tracks included songs like “Toyang”, “Pare Ko”,”Tindahan Ni Aling Nena”, and “Ligaya”.
We could sing along with the songs knowing the lyrics of each one of them since they were very easy to learn. Those were the best years I had bonding with my ka-baste98.
I’ve always loved the Pinoy alternative music especially the ones I grew up with. These were bands like The Eraserheads, Rivermaya, True Faith, Put3ska, *heck, even Yano, The Youth [remember Multong Bakla?], and that band who sang that psycho song “Lakas Tama”. Those were the Pinoy bands of my time. Club Dredd was the place to be for Pinoy rock and every claimed-to-be-punk in our class obliged to have the bar's shirt, and that other rock band place somewhere near UST in España [Mayrics?].
I never went to both places and only heard them from my older guy cousins or titos who would go there and watch. Only them were allowed to go there.
I remember some of my girlfriends decided to go to a Pulp Magazine sponsored concert in Manila. They were surprised to find themselves being thrown in a the mosh pit but terribly enjoyed the whole experience. This was one of the things I didn’t experience in my youth. Being thrown in a mosh pit and crowd surfing. I would still want to do it for the thrill of it.
As I grow older, my taste for music has become more diverse and yet, I still feel like I’m home when I listen to OPM Rock.
Even now, everytime the baste98 meets, kantahan while toma sa tunog ng E-heads ang isa sa pinakamasaya. We have all developed this love and great friendship sa isa't isa kasabay sa tunog ng gitara. Hanggang ngayon buong-buo pa rin kami. Malayo man ang iba, we know that the kapusong-Baste remains in our hearts.
Now, that IS an accomplishment.
> mag-exeRcise tayo!
Author: aLmich
A friend sent me a link of a video aptly titled “The Prison Break Dance”. I was amused to see that it was the whole “Thriller” dance routine by Michael Jackson was performed by 1,500 Filipino prisoners at CPDRC [Cebu Provincial Detention and Rehabilitation Cente]. I went to YouTube and searched for more videos and found out that the CPDRC Prison inmates have been doing several other “performances” as their daily morning exercise! This was spearheaded by security consultant, Byron F. Garcia, who realized that music help “drastically” improve inmates behaviour.
[video]
I think the idea is brilliant. Where else can you find not only dancing cooks and waiters but also prison inmates doing song and dance production as their morning routine? Only in the Philippines! Kidding aside, I give props to Mr. Garcia for being able to mobilize a whole prison and make the inmates participate in this project. Morning exercises never looked so much fun and entertaining!
> new layOuts as reQuesteD
Author: aLmich
My ofis-besfrends have long been asking me to make wallpapers for their desktop and cellphones. And since I can't sleep, I gave in... *hehehe
> bunTis cHronicLe
Author: aLmich
> puTting some Life back inTo the graveyaRd shifT
Author: aLmich
Understandably, many may be tempted to live on a steady dose of caffeine or prescription stimulant medications just like I do. I can't start my day wthout a venti Cafe Americano or a Mocha Frappe with a shot of espresso. But these can only help for so long and come with some side effects. How can you naturally adjust to an unusual sleeping pattern?
Sleeping When the Sun is Up
Resetting your circadian clock takes a bit of work, however. For overnight workers, once the body gets used to being up at night and sleeping during the day, things get a bit easier. But for those with a constantly-changing schedule, also called a rotating shift, the circadian clock has a tough time constantly readjusting. It is this last type of shift work that tends to be most taxing on the body.
Graveyard workers are of course prone to being asleep at work. These workers are more likely to experience stomach problems, colds, flu, weight gain, heart problems and higher blood pressure caused as a result of the stresses that shift work can put on a person's mind and body.
However, there are some things you can do to get a good night—or day—of sleep before heading off to work.
Start a Bedtime Ritual
Take a warm bath or listen to soothing music.
Avoid over-stimulating mental activities shortly before bed, such as a reading an exciting book or working on a crossword puzzle.
Lower the temperature in your bedroom to help you sleep. [*so kelangan may aircon!]
If you feel drowsy on the ride home, don't fight it: be sure to pull over to the side of the road. [*pang-mayaman 'to kse kelangan may kotse] Carpooling can help ensure that you get home safely.
Eat Well [*hmmm]
Weekends can be especially hard, as you will want to take advantage of the time to spend some daylight hours with friends or family. While experts stress the importance of maintaining your sleep schedule, it's simply impossible for most to keep it up through the weekend. Just be sure that family and friends understand your situation so that they are respectful of the time you do have to spend with them and the time you choose to spend asleep. [* dito pumapasok ang mga taong walang habas kung magtxt! punyeta!]
Without the stress of rush hour traffic or the monotony of a nine-to-five job, shift work can be appealing to many people. And by adding a strong routine to your overnight or shifting work schedule, you can stay healthy, too.
So people stay healthy! Live a normal life even with the abnormal situation. Afterall, you're paid better naman diba?
Lovelife and sexlife? that can be worked on.
> neW perKs
Author: aLmich
> wHen and wHere?
Author: aLmich
Great.
I don't know why I'm even reading this. It's just making me feel like, "You know what? Let's not bother with this. You're not even straight! Future spinsterhood, here I come!"
I don't know... maybe they're onto something, though. Sometimes, when my female friends are giving me advice, I sort of feel like I can't really trust what they're saying.
Like Samantha on Sex and the City said to Carrie, "Honey, we're as fucked up as you are. It's like the blind leading the blind."
So far, what I've been doing is this: nothing. Okay. That's not true. I've been trying to assess the situation. You don't want to chase after someone who's just gotten out of a relationship. But how long do you wait? And how do you carefully lay down the groundwork so that you're seen as someone they should seriously consider dating?
I don't know.
> baby sLide
Author: aLmich
> i'm jusT so haPpy..
Author: aLmich
Many people would like to be able to do things they picture out of their minds but can hardly execute it. And I'm just so happy there's this one thing I can now busy myself with.
Salamat sa adobe!
Pampatanggal stress!
> why bLog?
Author: aLmich
I was talking a little about blogging today and I was mentioning to this 2 friends how some people blog about everything -- cam whoring, pictures of food, daily activities, conversations with friends and *er, more cam whoring. They totally don’t understand blogging. Actually the idea of blogging, or broadcasting of thoughts, it’s sometimes just for this feeling of satisfaction, of encouragement, of someone caring about what you do.
