ramblings, random musings, fascinations, rants, raves and revelations

I seldom mention my relationship because I have struggled to verbalize what I feel inside. I've been in and out of a PLU relationship for [almost] 5 years now. It took me a decade to decide that the relationship was not something that I can repair on my own. Maybe that was my biggest obstacle in the first place I knew there was a problem and instead of communicating with my partner I took the problem and tried to solve it myself. Its true what Mami Cez said you need an abundance of patience, trust and equal amount effort... without those its bound to end. Great lessons we're learned and experiences have been bitter sweet. In the end, as the the song says, "I tried so hard and yet so far in the end, it doesnt even matter." As I step off the train station and watch the train depart, I bid my past goodbye and say my thanks to the adventures it brought.

Now alone, I feel weak and yet strengthened for there will be new adventures and new loves. It would be stupid of me to give up on finding happiness. I just have to keep exploring and never let my soul settle.