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These days are really tiring to the core. I can hardly go to sleep. I’ll be able to take a nap soon as I get home but that would only last for an hour or two. Then it’s work time again. The feeling that you’re shortchanged for everything adds to the burden too. I don’t know how to explain it. Sigh.

I’m sure nobody wants having this feeling - a sense of unsatisfaction and discontentment. do you get these moments when you feel that everything could still be much better than it is now? When you feel that a lot of people are standing on better ground and being washed down with cleaner rain? Yes, I know it’s unhealthy but I’m not sure myself where this is coming from so I guess it’s worth listing down the possibilities. Maybe through this I can get this out of my system and feel a whole lot better… If you have seen my Friendster account before, you should have noticed three words written under the “About Me” area. “Happy and contented…” Now I’m thinking, do I post another one which says- “Gloomy and unsatisfied…?” Nah. I’ll get over this. Maybe I just really lack sleep. I’ll just count my blessings, and tomorrow, my Friendster account will just be a reflection of what and how im feeling… “Happy and contented…” These thought made me remember also what we used to sing when I was still living with my Uncle Pastor.

Count Your Blessings

When upon life’s billows
You are tempest tossed
When you are discouraged,
Thinking all is lost
Count your many blessings,
Name them one by one
And it will suprise you
What the Lord has done.

Chorus:

Count your blessings,
Name them one by one
Count your blessings,
See what God has done
Count your blessings,
Name them one by one
Count your many blessings,
See what God has done.

Are you ever burdened
With a load of care?
Does the cross seem heavy
You are called to bear?
Count your many blessings,
Ev’ry doubt will fly
And you will be singing
As the days go by.

When you look at others
With their lands and gold
Think that Christ has promised
You His wealth untold
Count your many blessings,
Money cannot buy
Your reward in heaven,
Nor your home on high.

So, amid the conflict,
Whether great or small
Do not be discouraged,
Godis over all
Count your many blessings,
Angels will attend
Help and comfort give you
To your journey’s end.

And have you noticed my new multiply theme? A friend www.ejo23.multiply.com made that. He’s such a nice and sweet person.

That’s one thing I should be grateful for right?

With all the problems everyone is encountering, all the pains and sorrows, the longings and the hardships, it’s but just normal to look for something to lighten up the situation. I, for one, have been thinking about people who inspire me most recently. Inspiration is something people seek all the time. I look for it so much you could probably call me an “inspiration junkie”. As a blogger, I feel the need to be inspired all the time. It goes hand in hand with being enthusiastic about something.

And guess what? I’m not the only one out there! You too look for inspirations, you’re just denying it but of course you can’t. When I’m stuck with my job, I start thinking about people who inspire me–especially my family and friends.

Before I go, I’d like to share with you my top favorite inspirational quotes:

• A friend is there to give you love just when you need it most. Mama gave this when I was in High School
• The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy. Martin Luther King Jr.
• ‘Pag si Mama, magaling. Parang may Magic Touch. My brother Pipoy at age 7
• Flying is learning how to throw yourself at the ground and miss. Douglas Adams
• If you would create something, you must be something. Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
• First say to yourself what you would be; and then do what you have to do. Epictetus
• The purpose of life is a life of purpose. Robert Byrne

I love quotes [solicited], daily doses of wisdom, writing and taking pictures. They’re great pick-me-uppers. So, what inspires you and why? Or even who inspires you in your life? Give a holla back and leave me comments.

I came so early to work today. I met H and watched “Watchmen”. I’d like to tell you more about the story bul I’ll save that for next entry. Well, in a nutshell, I think the movie came out pretty well – and that’s an understatement. If you haven’t seen the movie yet, be forewarned that those of you expecting a superhero movie the likes of Superman or the X-Men will be severely disappointed, so best you throw those misconceptions out the window as you step into the theater. Heck, except for one person, none of the story’s heroes actually have superpowers. While the story revolves around the concept of masked heroes, the movie is not your run-of-the-mill good vs. evil or order vs. freedom or other similar paradigms. The use of masked heroes in this movie is a tool to drive a point. What point? Well, that’s what we’ll be talking about next time.

After the movie, we ate and went to the usual bantering. It dawned to me that this “more-insensitive-than-I-already-am-H” still reads my blog because he asked me about Maysilo guy. “I think you’re already fine”, you had fun sa Palawan right?”. I didn’t respond and focused on eating my pasta. “Are you already okay?” I then said “No”.

So many people feel as if they have to put on a strong face after something bad has happened to them… And I’m not just talking about relationship issues here. This could range from a death in the family to failing a class, or even losing a job. We tend to feel the need to appear strong because we have seen other people act this way and also because we don’t want to appear weak to others.

Well, guess what?

It’s okay to be not okay.

We too often put on a mask to appear the way that we want to be seen or the way that we feel we should be seen. But this isn’t going to make things better, and it’s not going to solve anything either.

So if you’re feeling “not okay,” say it, and don’t put on a mask to conceal how you feel. You’re not weak, and it’s not a cry for help. You’re just simply telling the truth about how you’re feeling. And there’s nothing wrong with that.

Besides, the sooner you can admit that you’re feeling blue, the quicker the grey clouds will fade above your head.

“Are we okay?”

“Of course we are!”

“At least tayo okay na ‘no?”