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> paRanOia sTrike bacK!
Author: aLmich
We met in a not so good instance. We started in a not so good time. We got hooked in a not so good reason. Now, I'm being paranoid.
Sometimes I find myself thinking about ways in which he might cheat on me. We don't live together but if he goes out with his friends I sometimes call to check if he's really with his buddies.
When he goes for lunch at school I wonder if he meets up with someone or if he comes to meet me more than 30 minutes late I worry myself sick and I ask 20 questions just to see if I can tell if he is lying. I get so worked up that I appear to be a nagger and a total un-ME.
I've never caught him doing anything but ever since we got together I have just got it into my head that he was going to "play games". Maybe our preferences dictate it or maybe I just love him so much.
I wonder if my past is making me think this way or what I've seen my "kind" of friends do to each other. I asked him last night if he really loves me. Of course he said yes but I just sit and think well does he really? I keep on asking him that question. My friends asked me the same thing. JC even suggested to weight things wisely.
He does everything for me and he is so nice when we're together; he never raises his voice or treat me bad. We only get to fight through SMS, we only get to hurt each other through the same.
How do I get over this fear in my heart and in my mind?
I also tried to trick him by saying that someone told me things that never really happened but obviously this did not work.
Whew! Crazy love.
